Thinking in First Person…
I really feel guilty! I have been indulging in myself these last 9 months. The duration of a pregnancy. The outcome has been the birth of ME!
I, I, I, me, me, me!
It’s all about what I think, how I look, how I feel, what I am doing, what I will be doing, my involvement in any given situation. From having stood at the back of most photographs, here I am at the front, taking full centre view! I feel good, I feel strong, I feel like ME!
I have always been thoughtful of others, spent endless time and effort on others’ behalf, willingly, obligingly, instinctively. It has given me great pleasure to have been able to help, it has reassured me to have kept tabs on my old ladies around me (I have 11 friends aged 85 and over!). But, often my helping others has been at the detriment of my own needs, putting others first rather than being responsible for my own person.
I had reached a point where it became urgent for my health to do something about myself, for myself, hence my weight loss surgery.
The physical aspect of the surgery has been of minimal importance – my surgeon was brilliant, my recovery uneventful other than being perfectly comfortable and with instantly visible results. Such a gratifying situation to be in for a change!
My emotional side is strong – I feel empowered! Having said that, I am very busy tying knots on loose ends, now my luggage from my former life is being neatly trussed up and ready for hauling to the dump! I have beavering away on the immensely rewarding task of clearing my cupboards, both physically and emotionally and am enjoying the luxury of new found space, a clarity of vision and loftiness!
I have put myself out in front and am liking the limelight for once! For how long I don’t know, but I sure feel I deserve being there as much as anyone else – and that feeling of certainty is very exhilarating!
So, now, for a little while longer, is all about me, for me and by me! A little like a new broom that sweeps clean!
My newfound energy inspires me to dare tread where I have not been before! Long may this last!
I really feel guilty! I have been indulging in myself these last 9 months. The duration of a pregnancy. The outcome has been the birth of ME!
I, I, I, me, me, me!
It’s all about what I think, how I look, how I feel, what I am doing, what I will be doing, my involvement in any given situation. From having stood at the back of most photographs, here I am at the front, taking full centre view! I feel good, I feel strong, I feel like ME!
I have always been thoughtful of others, spent endless time and effort on others’ behalf, willingly, obligingly, instinctively. It has given me great pleasure to have been able to help, it has reassured me to have kept tabs on my old ladies around me (I have 11 friends aged 85 and over!). But, often my helping others has been at the detriment of my own needs, putting others first rather than being responsible for my own person.
I had reached a point where it became urgent for my health to do something about myself, for myself, hence my weight loss surgery.
The physical aspect of the surgery has been of minimal importance – my surgeon was brilliant, my recovery uneventful other than being perfectly comfortable and with instantly visible results. Such a gratifying situation to be in for a change!
My emotional side is strong – I feel empowered! Having said that, I am very busy tying knots on loose ends, now my luggage from my former life is being neatly trussed up and ready for hauling to the dump! I have beavering away on the immensely rewarding task of clearing my cupboards, both physically and emotionally and am enjoying the luxury of new found space, a clarity of vision and loftiness!
I have put myself out in front and am liking the limelight for once! For how long I don’t know, but I sure feel I deserve being there as much as anyone else – and that feeling of certainty is very exhilarating!
So, now, for a little while longer, is all about me, for me and by me! A little like a new broom that sweeps clean!
My newfound energy inspires me to dare tread where I have not been before! Long may this last!
3 comments:
It should be about you right now. I am glad you are writing!
Vim, you are an inspiration!!!! Your reflections in this post made me THINK, and what more can one ask of a friend?!!
Dream on, Vim, and DARE TO LIVE!!!!
Vim, the above comment was from me! I neglected to sign it. DUHHH!!!
Hugs,
Claire-in-Texas
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